New Avenues

     I have set myself down a new road. It wasn't intentional, but it appears to be a good one none the less. Sometimes I think the unintentional changes in direction are the best ones. Who knows what you'll find? Traveling into the unknown can be exciting. After all, isn't that what we do as writers? Don't we take the reader somewhere they've never been before? Or at least hope to...I know I do. I hope I can have them set sail to new worlds and new ideas...and then, I want them to come back.

     I went back to the town I moved from (a 2.5 hour drive) to take care of the last bit of business I had there...and now I have finally snipped that thread of connection for good...woohoo! High fives all around! I then continued on to see my sister and mother (another 2 hours), spent the night there and came home the next day.
     I prefer not to do this much back-to-back driving (unfortunately I didn't have 3 days to spend on this trip) but all-in-all I do like it. It gives me time to think. My "muse" and I came up with a new idea for the book I am currently working on...my new avenue of thought. It's a bit of a new direction and tone, which I really like. It's amazing what can spring from boring, mindless activities. 
     Side note* I've found I'm using the voice recorder app on my phone more and more now that I've worked through the issue of listening to my own voice. I don't like it. But, sacrifices must be made in the name of progress. 😝

     I found a group meditation happening downtown tomorrow night and have decided to go. Because hey, why not? I know I need to get out more and meet people here. You know, make friends and whatnot. I tend to be a homebody, or as my sister puts it, a hermit. I think that's a bit harsh, but I do like being at home and I have no problem being by myself. I admit it...I'm picky about who I let in my bubble. I'm nearly 50, I have no time for BS and drama. If that's the train your driving, keep it moving 'cause I'm not getting on. I have my own goals, mainly finishing my books and I get in my own way enough, I don't need anyone else's help lol!
    
     I am still navigating the feeling of awkward emptiness that pervades my home without my constant companion in it. I still look for him to poke his nose into the kitchen when I'm making something. I've kind of gotten used to him not being on the floor next to my bed, as I am not tripping over him in the middle of the night, but I still expect to see him there when I wake up in the morning. And he's not. Nor is he in his kennel or sleeping in his spot on the living room floor when I come home from work. The trip I just made was very strange for me. I kept feeling like I was forgetting to take care of him. The feeling tugged at my heart the whole time I was gone. I had skipped my usual routine of finding someone to watch him or making an appointment to have him kenneled before I left town. I was somehow failing to do my job....and it hurt. Even though I will eventually stop expecting to see him, and someday I will be able to take a trip without worrying about him, I will always miss him. I will always love him. He will always be my boy. 
     Change happens whether you want it to or not and life moves on, so it's best to go with it. I also know that I will be bringing my beautiful, tattered little bag of love, pain and sadness with me; tucked into that special compartment of my heart. 
     
     Inspiration happens all the time, in the most random places, at the most random times. I'm always looking for it, although it seems I find more of it when I'm not looking. Many things happen that way. The most wonderful things appear in your life when your not looking....like magic.
     That's what I wish for everyone...that one day they'll look around and find themselves surrounded by the magic they were creating every single day. Go ahead. Make a wish. 🎇
     

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